The Universe is Conspiring Against Me


It’s Like the Desert Out Here

Negative thoughts are creeping in.  I don’t know how the hell I’m supposed to run a 25k in just over 2 months.  The most I’ve run is an 8k.  I’ve done a duathlon and triathlon, but not a footrace that long.  A few things are making me feel like I can’t do it:


Summer has come to a close.

1.  Last night was the last real night of summer for our family.  We had a great dinner at my parent’s house.  I drank too much wine.  It was awesome.  But, since I drank too much wine I woke up dehydrated and tired this morning.  I got up early anyway and went out to the trails.

2.  There was a race going on at the trails, so there was no parking.  I was already annoyed.

3.  The trails were crowded with racers.  Good for them.  Distracting for me.  Lots of sweat flying off of people, and some grunting mixed with huffing and puffing.

4.  The Texas heat is not letting up.  I was out there at 7:30 and it was already in the 80s, with 82% humidity. Come race day in November, the temp should be in the 50s.  So I keep trying to remind myself of that.

So overall, I’m disappointed in today’s run.  I’m considering looking at the race registration and seeing if I can do the 10k instead of 25k because it seems like a more reasonable increase in distance.

Anyone else ever doubt themselves?

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12 thoughts on “The Universe is Conspiring Against Me

  1. emmamoves says:

    Oh yes! I understand what you are feeling. Every time I set out on a long run my first thought is “I don’t think I can do this”. Instead of thinking about now, I look way back to my first ever run and think about how much I have improved since I staggered along the pavement barely able to keep moving for 2 minutes. Then I start to feel that the next run up is going to be difficult, but not impossible.

  2. Oh, you can do it! You still have plenty of training time before November! Just think, all this running in the heat & humidity will make your November race that much better.
    Hang in there, believe me, I’ve been asking myself why I bothered to sign up for another mini…but we just need to push through!

  3. I totally understand the overwhelmed feeling, but you’re going to be great. When I get like that, I work really hard to try and do the best I can with the training, then just try and ENJOY race day. It’s a new distance, which means new experience!

  4. 278toBoston says:

    2 months is a lot of time. Don’t give in yet. Two months ago I had a hard time running 13 miles in a run and now I’m doing 20. As I’m sure you know, the human body is amazing!! Keep with it and don’t make decisions before 2 weeks before your race. You can do it!!!

  5. Me and self doubt were arguing my entire run on Saturday evening, but I didn’t turn around, stop, or cut things short. So I win! I am sure you will do great, one step at a time, you’ve got this! 🙂

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