Discouraging Words


It’s been 9 days since I almost broke my back.  Okay, maybe that’s being a little dramatic.  But the Dirty Girl Mud Run ended up costing me a lot more than the $70 entrance fee (which I don’t think was worth it at all, but that’s beside the point).  After a huge copay at the ER that day, pharmacy copays, followup visit copay, and lastly an MRI – this race was my most “expensive” one yet.  Add to that pain and suffering.

The results of my MRI are:

In medical terms:  L4-L5 disc bulge with an annular tear, edema in the bone marrow and bruising to the bone.  No direct impingement on the spinal cord or nerves.

In layman’s terms:  I don’t have a herniated disc (just a slightly damaged one), and my spinal cord is not injured.  I don’t need surgery and the tear should heal with time and medications.

So, I should be happy right!?  Well, I definitely am glad it wasn’t worse.  But I still have trouble not whining about how much it sucks to be injured.  I had to miss the 5k I was planning (and paid for) this past Saturday.  The Windcrest City of Lights 5k – it was a nighttime race through an amazing neighborhood that is lit up every year with thousands of Christmas lights.  My husband ran it and really enjoyed it.  My kids even ran the Candy Cane Dash that was right before the 5k (their first race EVER)!  It really was an exciting night for our family.  It was just very hard being a spectator at a race I was supposed to participate in.

I’ve rested.  Now it’s time to move into recovery mode.  I’ve already started taking short walks through the neighborhood and local trails and it’s been great getting out – although I’m paranoid that I’m going to get hurt again:  Before I cross the street, I look both ways 3 times and cross only if it’s clear for miles.  On the trails, I am leary of every rock and root sticking out of the ground because I am sure one will send me flying and I’ll get hurt again.  I wonder if this overwhelming fear is normal??  I’m not sure when I’ll start running but I hope it’s very soon.  Part of my plan is to also get back to swimming at the gym because it is such a low impact workout.

Any advice is appreciated!  Wish me luck!

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11 thoughts on “Discouraging Words

  1. Carrie says:

    My advice is “get back on that bike”…yes…you might fall and get hurt again…but think about it this way…how many times have you jogged, ran on your own and in races and NOT gotten hurt? I think the ratio is FAR in YOUR favor 🙂

    • You’re so right – logically and statistically speaking, I will be ok! But you know how the mind can run wild. My sister hurt her chin/neck on a bike ride years ago (cut open the skin big time when she fell and hit another cyclist’s pedal), and it took a LONG time to get back to riding again. I don’t want to be paralyzed by the fear, just be cautious I guess.

  2. Carrie says:

    One of the worst wipe out’s I have had was recently, I was rushing to get into the building because it was raining and I didn’t want to get wet…I started to stumble and somehow I was speeding up…than BAM…hit the concrete on both knee’s, sliding in the nasty mud…and YES getting soaking wet. The pain…I couldn’t move-poor Lauren was all worried, I thought for sure I was hobbled for life…how in the hell am I going to make it up the 3 flights of stairs as I could feel my tendons tightening…but, I made it..only to find my keys had flown from my purse…my sweet Lauren went down to retrieve while I had to literally lie down on the floor because I was dizzy from the pain…I was sure one of my 4 neighbors was going to see me in all my muddy glory, but luckily Lauren came and got us safely in. My knee’s were so black…but no serious damage…:) You too will heal and thankfully NO SURGERY 🙂

    • Ouch that sounds awful!!! Our knees and backs are so important to keep injury free, and it’s true you don’t have to be a hardcore athlete to get hurt! I used to be a pretty big klutz and fall going up stairs or curbs.

  3. I’m just glad your back isn’t seriously injured…now if only that meant it didn’t hurt!

  4. YIKES. Read this post and the previous one. Sounds like you can recover – might take longer than you’d like, but I hope it’s an easy recovery. No fun when it happens during a race, too! 😦

    • Sorry for my late response – we’ve been on vacation 🙂 Thank you so much for the well wishes! I started running again 15 days after my injury!! I am 95% back to my previous self and could not be happier!! (Never doing an obstacle race again).

  5. WordsFallFromMyEyes says:

    Ugh, that sounds frightening – truly frightening. But you just can’t take away from the fact you’re awesome for even TRYING the Dirty Girl Mud Run. Awesome! 🙂

    • Why thank you for the compliment! I am willing to accept that I was awesome for trying – but will also say “been there, done that” and never again!

      • WordsFallFromMyEyes says:

        Ha ha, I said that about having a child! I stopped at one. You will note, I do not regret it, and would endure same again to have the son I have today, but yep, “been there, done that” is the general theme I feel.

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