Where Are My Tic Tacs!?

Where Are My Tic Tacs!?  

If you know where this line comes from without having to watch the clip, we can be friends.  I’m ashamed to admit I feel like Parker Posey in You’ve Got Mail quite frequently these days :/

Ever since I discontinued my medication for anxiety/depression this past summer, my anxiety has reared its ugly head more and more.  (Thankfully, the depression is a distant memory and I can only hope it won’t return, but I sometimes feel that’s only a matter of time).  I feel agitated frequently, and my temper can be very short.  This usually happens in moments of stress (obviously) and I’m trying to find ways to control it naturally.  For example:

  • I was on the phone with the doctor’s office about getting referred for a test, and they were insisting I had to come in for a visit. I flat-out refused, demanded that they schedule me for the test without a visit (and the huge copay and wasted time I was trying to avoid), asked to speak with the office manager (who wasn’t there that day), and then promptly hung up on them.
  • I still can’t bring myself to make phone calls to strangers – including the cable company and the bank.
  • Mornings are hard for me (I’ve NEVER been a morning person).  My kids and I have to get out the door very early and it’s stressful.  Those of you with young children can understand, I’m sure.  Even though I’ve picked out their clothes the night before and my husband packs the lunches so they’re ready to go, we just can’t all seem to get it together in time.  I end up losing my temper with them and immediately regretting the things I say.
  • I’m a cusser.  I’ve always been a cusser, but lately the cuss words seem to flow a little too easily.  I should probably try to control that.

But how?

  • I’ve tried journaling, but at the height of my anxiety it’s not practical to whip out a journal and scribble my thoughts – especially at my work.
  • I’ve tried self-talk, but I’ve run out of things to say.
  • My coworkers know about my anxiety and have been gracious enough to get me a calming battery-powered water fountain, and a mini Zen rock garden (how awesome are they!?).  I joke that they don’t want to see me rage, but I’m sure that’s partly true.

I wish I could predict when the anxiety was coming, and maybe I could pop a Xanax, but it sneaks up on me most of the time.  I feel like the Hulk is about to burst out of me sometimes.  I care enough about my job and my friends to not let that happen though, but I need to find ways to control this anxiety.

Any suggestions?  Or maybe just a story to share?

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6 thoughts on “Where Are My Tic Tacs!?

  1. When I feel anxious, being mindful of my breathing and taking deep breathes, along with replacing each thought with something else, for instance, I feel anxious because I “think” I won’t be able to do —-fill in blank—- is replaced by, of course you can —-fill in blank— and the sooner you do it the sooner it will be over with! I hope that makes sense and/or helps! 🙂

    • I could see breathing is key – I will definitely try and make a conscious effort to take a deep breath or two before I react or when I feel myself tensing up. Positive thinking is a great idea too! I am trying to “take the long view” more and make myself realize that each little stress will end. Thank you for your thoughts!

  2. Carrie Palaoro says:

    Vitamin B-12 helps me. There is also another “all natural” suppliment sold at target called calms forte-check it out. You sound pretty organized in the morning, but maybe setting a timer for the kids? I love timers…and sometimes MD offices deserve to be hung up on…lol as for calling strangers…well thats what I do for a living…just have to tell myself “suck it up buttercup”…lol, but sometimes putting it in perspectivd helps me…just as they are strangers I am calling…I too am a stranger they are helping…so just GO FOR IT…

  3. I’ve never tried Vitamin B-12 and I’ve never heard of the Calm Forte (how could I not – I LIVE at Target!?). I will DEFINITELY be checking both of those out soon. A timer is a great idea – I can set one for 15 mins before it’s time to leave, 10 mins, then 5 mins. We can do that on our phones. I don’t know how you call so many people a day, but when I really think about it I call about a dozen parents a day – I guess the difference is I “know” them. Thanks so much for reading, my friend 🙂

  4. Carrie Palaoro says:

    Yes…I really think you will find B-12 helpful.as a.natural mood regulator and natural energizer. I really notice a huge decrease on PMS symptoms when I take it daily. Glad you found my suggestions helpful.

  5. Bonus on the PMS symptoms! My BCPs were just discontinued so I was forced to go on a different brand. I used to have NO PMS symptoms, and now I’ve been having them. Thanks again!

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